Dead As January

I fear life more than death,

Uncertain is life, certain is death.

All uncertainty until said final breath.

Clocked we are from moment of cot,

Till worm food we do but rot.

And stars we all return.

 

I wake and feel nothing on often a sunny morn,

Withdrawn, hollow, a face of sorrow and forlorn.

I am empty, collection tin empty.

Dead as January, outlook bleak,

If I was weather, cover you would seek,

To ride out my lingering storm.

 

No smile to crack, against the cracking curtain dawn.

With my razor tongue I deliver my razor scorn,

And slice my smile away.

“Close the book” they say, turn the page,

I was a different man, a different age.

I wrote of it once, my bastard page.

 

Wasted all, onto deaf ears their wisdom did fall,

And crash their wise words, laid broken upon the floor.

Salted tears cried through regretful years,

Overflowing lakes accompany my burning ears,

Curse my failed frittered years, 

Frittered and cursed away.

 

 

 

Copyright © 2017 Charlie Hasler.

25 thoughts on “Dead As January

  1. A tour de force, again ! Charlie I hope I’m not overstepping here, I seek not to preach and am not qualified to teach but I wondered if you may be limiting your art, your gift by subject . I know, from experience how liberating and therapeutic it is to exorcise demons, I still do now and again but I also know how rewarding it was to find I could open ‘the door’ and pull out the wonder of finding a single petal for example. Peak experiences are good place to start, that photo of the scary rock above looks like one ! And your wife and dad sound amazing souls ! Thanks for sharing your gift Charlie, you are a man of great worth to the world.

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    1. Hi Nigel, no marks over stepped at all my friend, I do know what you mean exactly, I just write how I feel at the time and whatever comes out. That`s the danger of it all sometimes, it can all become quite insular. I am on holiday in France in a fortnight. When I am relaxed and in bonjour mode I will focus on the lighter side of life. I think however, in the main. when you see in darkness most of the time its hard to not think in shadows, as it were. I hope you are well my friend.

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